Research

04.02.2020 - Gertrude Stein

Your words seem nonsensical but touch something deep inside, 
they resonate. 

That moment when you meet someone and you talk for hours and time passes without a blink. 

Leaves you longing for more. 
For the next moment to talk and share and be. 
For the next sentence to hang from, the next word to be uttered. 

The connection of sparks gathering as the electricity surges. 

The moment that you meet someone and you want them to stay forever and you want that forever to be now, for this moment to be never-ending, lasting a lifetime. 

When you search for them, at every opportunity, the connection, like magnets; the graphite standing on edge as the field comes into sight. 
The moment the attraction of mind is greater and the arousal is piqued. 

When the rhythm of your heart is the pace of their words and the tingle in your fingers is the breath from their mouth and the look in your eyes is the glistening of their skin. 
                                            *It started with Gertrude Stein*

29/09/2018 - Update: Work Over the Summer - Where I am Now

In our initial meeting on September 17th, I remember saying I felt like I hadn't been very productive. However, in drawing my work together in preparation for a tutorial I realised I had actually produced a relatively good amount of work, I was being proactive but for the enjoyment, which is perhaps why I had dismissed it.

I took the time to revisit my photo collages. When I had created these pages I had always intended to paint the left page to merge the images together. My mental disposition means I get distracted, easily, really easily, and when I do drift off into my thoughts my visual focus tends to blur, meaning the visage in front of me turns into a hazy merging of lines and shapes. When this happens 'Distraction Point Two' creeps in and I veer away from my thoughts and into the patterns. These pages are an attempt to make sense of the visual clutter, the cyclic process of distraction and focus, the redefining of attention. These feel like an interpretation of the visual clutter of daily life, the distraction techniques used to keep us focused inwards.

On the pages above I returned to the process of layering. The aspect of preservation and building up feels indicative of many cities or even countries, especially where I am now. Preserving tradition and cultural ideals while building up and merging into emerging markets, opening doors for layers of society from other locations to lay foundations and develop something new for themselves and the inviting country/city.

Rough sketchbook notes: I had a couple of sit-downs both alone and with a friend and visited the goals and ideas I have in mind for the course.

These charcoal pieces were done in a frenzy, a physical manifestation of the speeding anxiety that seared through during the summer. These fragmentations that represented daily routine were metaphorically torn apart in the summer creating angst and instability. I question how I could recreate that instability and anxiety in a gallery setting without endangering the viewer.

Excitingly these works were created while leading a drawing workshop at my studio space. Evidence of collaboration of materials between myself and my guests. One member bought with her some children's watercolour crayons, they were slick in texture, almost like a lipstick and oddly satisfying to work with. I avoid colour but there was an inner rebellion against myself that urged me to explore them. I don't hate this work. The colour adds another dimension but for the use of colour to continue I need to explore the reasoning further. The psychology of colour is pertinent as I would not want misinterpretations or forced ones either.

Lastly, I am currently working in to collage. I feel like the work needs to become heavier, mirroring the change in daily routine since returning to work. Also looking at the daily routines of many families that become dense with activities, social engagements, errands etc. This process of collage is addictive and therapeutic, I envision many more of these coming into fruition. The papers are photocopies of early sketchbook pages, I would like to explore developing these into paintings, perhaps using modelling paste to build texture, something to squeezing into as we squeeze so much into each day.

Questions:

Is now the time to make work for the sake of it and allow the research I have already done to sink in? Do I keep on researching? Once you've begun researching do you ever actually stop, making that last question void?

I want to maintain the elements of repetition, that is fundamentally important to me, do I need textile techniques to do that? (embroidery)

Do I want to be labelled?...

constructivism - abstract - nonobjective - reductive art - radical art - postminimalism - formalism

Do labels matter? How can I change a label? Who gives work labels?

Reading the book '100 Artists' Manifestos', questioning whether I wish to be associated or inspired by movements/artists whose morality and ethics I question.  Can you still appreciate an artwork even if you are fundamentally against the believes and concepts behind the work?

17/09/2018 - 22/09/2018 MA2 Extension, research and play.

Extension, research and play.

How do we extend practice -towards what?

Opening our practice/research up to different disciplines, inputs, outputs and/or collaborations; considering the possibilities of what can feed into our practice and what can also come out of it and for whom. What products and/or by-products do we generate, who is consuming or could consume them?

As an artist how can you extend your practice physically; perhaps by building on existing and/or incorporating new skills, adding breadth and/or depth to media manipulations, and/or exploring the time a space of art making? In another aspect, the research undertaken as an artist can be more refined, deeper, digging into territories that excite and enliven a practice. Considering how the work is consumed by the audience; are they viewer, consumer, participant, victim or judge? Do they have a choice, is that a factor? Will they have an input, an output or a takeaway?

If these queries are responded to the practice may develop depth and breadth that can be witnessed/experienced by both the artist and the audience. Challenges push towards improvement and clarity.

Personal:

Going forward areas for extension are:

  • Refine my research - focus, stop trying to cover so much that the message is diluted by conflicting and confusing messages.
  • Explore my palette - the limitations of colour choice may be holding the work back, let colour feed in as necessary and be a considered part of the work. Stop resisting it.
  • Audience and installation - entanglement is a theme that I have also resisted through fear of complications and lack of skills - PLAY with this.

How are we curious materially and yet focussed?

I don’t know how to answer this question clearly. I think this is because I am too curious materially and lack focus. My focus is my research practice which I have been developing for the best part of 3 years but gets swept up into tangents. These tangents allow for other questions and concepts to emerge but these make the physical work muddly and therefore tend to get logged and then stored as I attempt to restrict my concepts in an effort to maintain a focused practice. My thoughts work so fast due to my mental make-up that I have a tendency to run away with ideas and miss out large chunks of physical development as I have mentally processed the possible outcomes and decided on a path without physical exploration. The challenge has been to ensure that the development and exploration happens and is detailed and justified, a task that feels complex and slow. My material practice has suffered due to this as I don’t stay with something for very long (other than the tracings). I long to develop a piece over time but worry that the lack of quantity will be judged.

Purposeful play

This feels so relevant, it's now a part of my life due to my assigned roles of both Mother and Teacher, an aspect that has been somewhat absent in my practice due to being out of the teaching profession for a few years. Most of the cohort are teachers, of this I am aware. But I question how much we now look to play to move our students through their work, or is it a series of repetitive tasks to tick off assessment criteria and fill out the necessary paperwork. Do we work with our students, model best practice or ‘practice what we preach’ as the saying goes? I’m feeling invigorated to be teaching again, to have those moments in the classroom and the workshop where the simple task of joining in brings a new idea or dimension to my work. By removing the weight of research and context and simply making, how can I transform my practice, what doors with metaphorically open, what opportunities will show themselves?

What ideas and concepts are preoccupying you within your practice?

I’m still very much enthralled with the repetition of ‘daily life’ and the events of chaos that stir up the mundane. Feeding into this is the aspect of assigned gender roles and a thirst for philosophical knowledge (I just can’t stop listening to philosophy podcasts and reading!). Since the beginning of March, I have been working with a research group looking into the role of the Manifesto in art and this research has bought up some questions regarding the concepts behind art, the allocation of work to movements and the thinking behind the movements.

Currently, I feel an urge to move away from my sparse fragmented images into dense heavy pieces. Upon reflection, I can see this is a reaction to the now dense calendar I have, the weight of responsibilities, and commitments that now need to be negotiated.
Are there areas from the research that you did last year that you feel need more interrogation?

Since completing the contextual study I have a desire to explore the aspect of taking up space, navigating around a space and the physicality and illusion of form in space; linking to the manner in which we navigate around chaos both large and small, physical and mental.

What do you want to find out more about that could inform your practice?

Performance - I’m full of fear regarding performative art but am now considering how to make the audience the performers such as Gustav Metzer’s Crawl Space which I recently experienced in Abu Dhabi. The thought of performing is both thrilling and terrifying but perhaps I can navigate around that obstacle by enlisting the consumers of the artwork as the unwitting performers of it as well.