exploratory

14.02.2020-22.02.2020 Progress for Group Critique Mon 24 Feb

I continue with the wax explorations, adding charcoal and graphite to the liquid parafin wax. The colour density is varied, the charcoal disperses completely with the liquid.

The graphite does not submit and settles on the bottom of the cast which then becomes the top surface when removed. As the wax becomes more diluted the graphite groups with its own kind.

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In preparation for the Group critique on Monday I have started to take rough images of the work in format, stacking the smaller tiles.

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I am intrigued by the volume of the works. I am also provoked by the distance the images give to the work.

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The distance between the materials is awkward. The last images portrays this in the arrangement as well. We know that if either pile becomes unstable it is likely to off balance the other, the materials colliding and probably fragmenting.

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Binding the materials does not add stability. The action of binding was in itself destabilising and complicated, placing the work in a compromised position.

I want to explore the mechanisms of binding the work, through the materials used (soft ribbons, rubber bands, bandages, paper, tape), and the operations such as punching holes to lace them together, spearing them, melting them, plastering the plaster ones together, binding them with twine while still soft or brittle.

TO DO:

Revisit old work and bind piles together (Using old work for prototyping makes more senses due to time constraints)

Reflectors and ring light. White and black paper roll for photos

White paint books and piles of accordion fold books - bind and stack - unfolded and closed

CONTEXTUAL STUDY

Working through mechanisms of creation and meaning and the need to hide the meaning from the audience to enable the operations to happen. Privacy and restrictions in a country of privacy. The restriction of person and personality. Silencing the work in the manner I silence my practice and my thoughts. What does it mean to withhold practice?

the relationship of operations of creating and consuming.

To bind, to control, to hold in, to scaffold, to contain, to conceal, to seal.

Distance of viewer and artist to work. Weight of artist visible, haptic inherent - viewer dissociation, an enforced segregation.

Exclusion

Occluded viewership

Artists to explore:

Charnel-Joseph H Boutros

Ryan gander

12.02.2020 - Documenting progress so far

Relatively clean documentation of items created so far. Tomorrow I will continue to make some wax tiles and explore the plain tiles that have recently dried. There are also some paintings that require scaffolding.

As suggested, these will then be bound, stacked and held in groups to be photographed.

Paintings in progress with first or second layer of scaffolding:

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Small plaster tiles:

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Larger tiles:

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Soap tiles (white and clear):

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Wax tile:

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Cellulose tiles:

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06.02.2020 - cellulose

As I undo, your essence fills the air,
You spread yourself all over me
I can feel you subtly touching my skin
Fibrous, tiny hairs adhering.
I dive my hand in a grab you
A hand full
Too much for my small fingers
awkward, rugged.
Firmly I grip and bring you up
You’re dry so I moisten you
Making you sticky in my grasp
Exploring you with my fingertips
I spread you on the glossy surface
You submit with a little resistance
Your moisture trickles out as I apply pressure
Smoothing you with fabric
Soaking up your damp puddles as I push
Taming you to my will
I’m satisfied you’re done
I leave you to rest in the sun.
                                                          *cellulose*

30.12.2019 - mono prints with alternatives - soap and wax

Plaster continues but added to the materials experiments are wax and soap.

Instead of maintaining calm and working methodically through the current pieces, I listen to the inner harbinger of anticipation and trace my way through a cacophony of materials in a fickle search for satisfaction. This remains eluded too. So I pile them, sandwiched betwixt tissue and paper, saved for the next moment of revelation.

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Soap & wax

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Wax melted

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Soap

  • Wax set

  • Plaster

Process writing:

Layering of space
Of people
Compacted
Glued together with
Soap and plaster

                              *casting workshop*

Touch me
Warm me up
Pour me on to your surface
Let me seep into you
Fill your cracks
I’ll search them out
Pick up the dust from your history
Make it my own
Claim you as me
Find the spaces together

                                        *wax*

Sealing the gaps 
Don’t let me leak
Close off my weakness
Fortify my boundaries
Lest you break them
To keep you in
To keep you out
To keep me safe
To maintain a whole?

                                  *casting*

I was too much for you
Too hot to handle
I broke you
Your boundaries gave way
And I leached past
Making you less of yourself
Here in the dark
No one saw
But I felt it
Traces of me on the ground
Taking new shape
As you let me go
Changed by you
Because you let me go.

                                         *wax*

Taking account
Lined up, ready to go
Silenced but speaking so much
The surfaces glint and glimmer in the light
Monoprints of graphite
Entombed in domesticity
Plaster, fragile and grainy
A facade of smoothness
Hiding its chalky substrate
Soap, shiny and glassy,
Slick and opaque
Engulfing the materials
Encapsulated
The protection minimal
Frivolously released with a hint of moisture
Wax, hinting at transparency
Holding the grains hostage
Giving in when the heat is raised.

                                                       *tiles*

You’re under my nails
Under my skin
In my thoughts
This desire is waning
Like the moon
It cycles until
The momentum returns
And there you are
Glowing
Begging me to look at you
To feel you
On my skin again

                                *soap*

Pour me on to you
Let me seep 
Fill the cracks
Claim you as me

                                 *plaster*

28.12.2019 - casting again - process - printing

I’m not sure what I will do with these tiles. I do know that I’m referring to them, as plaster mono prints now. They can not be repeated. The image is created first before the ground is added and lifted to reveal the ‘image’ or print.

I learnt from the last batch that the consistency of the plaster is better thicker to stop the graphite and charcoal from floating. This means one has to work quickly though which is the issue if you haven’t not estimated plaster amounts correctly.

Currently they sit on my studio desk, crude beginning of more important work. Languishing among the piles of graphite and research papers. I plan to work in to them, but until my nerves are strong enough to sully their unrepeatable exteriors they will sit and wait.

21.12.2019 - home casting

I procured the equipment needed to cast tiles at home. Smaller frames were found to allow for experiments without using as much materials as its expense to purchase here.

To test the small frames viability I utilised a play date and got the kids involved!

Satisfied with the size I continued with my own casts.

Heady with excitement I lent no time for planning and explored various materials on the Plexiglas sheet. I applied oil and wax pastels, graphite and charcoal dust and allowed the process to decide the outcome.